Why?

After a promising start last week, it’s back down the black hole again. Although I feel encouraged by some weight loss (not sure why because I’ve done nothing to cause it), things are not looking too rosy on the drink front.

I know that fear is a great motivator. I’m running away from something and have been ever since I started drinking in my teens (probably before). At the time that was masked, it was fine to drink. Now it’s not, I’m too old for this game.

If I want to be a success, I need to be fit and sober. They are my criteria. Whatever I’m running away from can be and probably must be combatted through work and success.